12/14/22

well folks, today was my hematologist appointment for my blood disorder. the doctor is housed in a cancer center so 1) it was the saddest waiting room I’ve ever been, everyone looked old and frail and sick, and 2) it took forever – my appointment was scheduled for 9:30am but I didn’t even get out of there until close to noon.

I was a nervous wreck once I finally got called to the back, but the nurse was really cool which I appreciated. then the doctor came in and asked me a bunch of questions and started talking about clots and thrombosis and what type of medical procedures would be risky for me – at this point I was giggling with nerves and he was like ?????? then he left and ordered some tests, at which point the nurse came back and was like “we need to collect twenty (20) tubes of blood” and I truly thought she was JOKING to ease my nerves but she was NOT!!

anyway, I feel like shit and I have to go back in 3-4 weeks. I can’t tell if I feel like shit because of the amount of blood or if it’s all in my head. I’m for sure hysterically giggling still, I feel tired, and I feel like I can’t clench my hands into fists LOL I hate being this dramatic. I survived, and this was probably the thing causing me the most anxiety this week so I’m glad it’s in the rearview.

things I am grateful for: Raising Cane’s chicken fingers; my cool nurse who kept me distracted; and not passing out during my appointment today.